So, I’m going to start this blog with a confession.
I do not understand the concept of Father… Not so much how one becomes a father, or the biological relation between two people that makes one of them a father. Growing up without my father has left me a little.. estranged.. from this concept of father.
I remember going for prayer at my home church and being encouraged to “talk to God like my father”. I did what I was there to do, and I prayed – in no particular or different way to the usual way I approached God in prayer. I recall going home and going over this statement – like a father – and I came to the conclusion that I have no clue what the pastor was on about. To do something like something else would take the need to know what that something else is in the first place. Ask me to quack like a duck, that I can do because I am familiar with ducks, and what sound they make, so I can do that – but, I don’t know father..
I’ve watched many interact with their fathers and I’ve heard many talk of their special bond and relationships with their fathers. Socially growing up hearing statements like “daddy’s little girl” and “daddy’s little princess”, but none I can resonate with, I’m not familiar with father.
I’ve been brought up by a man who I love dearly, who I call Daddy, who took me under his Dumplin’ kneading, Salt Fish frying, Bread Pudding baking arms and raised me as his own. However, there was a reminder – somewhat constant, that he – despite his love and care and dedication to me, was not my father – I am not familiar with father.
This I found a challenge in my spiritual life. I see God as God, and I see God as Sovereign, Lord, Creator, King, Judge, Ruler.. all these dominant, strong, overarching somewhat distant figures .. but there is heart to the word father that you do not get with the others, a different connection, a sense of belonging and relationship, a connection and relation. But, I struggle, because I just don’t have that natural relational connection in me to then turn to God in the same (or similar) way. I dont even know if that’s the point.. I am just not familiar with father…
SO… I decided to stick a pin in it as it was winding me up ever so slightly – I moved on to something else.. Adoption! This I can become familiar with.. this I can do! I sat with my King James Concordance Bible – Yes I’m old school. Looked up the word ADOPTION and read every scripture – over and over and over. I can become familiar with adoption.
I went through a time of wanting to adopt a cat. I went to my local animal welfare trust and spent many weekends looking at cat after cat after cat. I never ended that process of getting one, but this process reminded me of this process of Spiritual Adoption. The adoption process is one of choice ultimately. It’s about saying – you don’t belong to me, but I choose to make you mine. It’s about seeing what you want, and deciding to make it yours. Often times there is a chance to find out about said “thing”.. good, bad and in-between, and still, having known all about this “thing” deciding – yes – I will take this one! Where as being born to a man and him having no choice but to be called a father by default, this adoption process is about choice – I choose to do this! My own father made the choice not to do this, something I didn’t think he had choice to do.. lo and behold he found some and boy has he exercised it..
In my next few blogs I will take you through my journey and share how I have become familiar with and settled with the line of Adoption. While I still know God to be Father, for me to establish that parent-child like relationship with God that allows me to be more dependant on Him like a child would to a parent, I need to get there, and this seems to be my route into relationship that’s not so distant.
See you next time where my first scripture will be from Ezekiel 16: 8 … go read it!
Ok, I’ll be nice and quote it for you:
“When I passed by you again, I looked at you, and noticed that it was your proper time for love. I spread my cloak over you to cover your nakedness. I made a solemn promise to you and entered into a covenant with you,” declares the Lord GOD. “You belong to me”
That’s the International Standard Version. The King James Version put it this way, and I will explain why this version hit home with me more next time:
“Now when I passed by thee, and looked upon thee, behold, thy time was the time of love; and I spread my skirt over thee, and covered thy nakedness: yea, I sware unto thee, and entered into a covenant with thee, saith the Lord GOD, and thou becamest mine”
See you soon. x