Uninvited: Lysa TerKeurst

I’m just going to get to the point.. This has been one of the best booked that I have read for a long time…

Possibly due to the time of life that I am currently in (Recovery and Healing).. and maybe just because it’s just a very well written book. She has a very personable tone to her writing that makes you feel like one of her sisters or a close friend. She remains warm and welcoming in each of her chapters.

The book takes you through how she has managed and dealt with different aspects of rejection stemming from the absence of father as a child, friends, colleagues, loved ones and heartbreak. Each of these experiences she has walked through and she takes her reader through them in such a real way – literally inviting you walk through it with her. She then stops to invite you to a better way of viewing rejection.

Many of us resist the opportunity and chance of rejection by living in isolation, but all that really does is frustrate and lock the call of God on our lives. Lysa makes it clear that rejection is something that we all must face in life, however our perception and mindset is so important in how we respond to it. She invites you to reinforce your truth and foundations of your belief so that when rejection comes you are not shaken by it but can actually be built by it.

In previous blogs I have talked about the importance of what you hold true and this book reinforce that for me. It is really important that you are aware of what you hold true, what you consider fact and how you allow those things to govern your life. She touches on the effects of “Stinking Thinking” and how the contents of the heart can impact your life.

My key take away from this book: God is Good, God is Good to me, and God is Good at being God. This statement really stood out to me. It really challenged and questioned if I really trusted God to be God. If I did, truth is, I would worry a lot less about the future because God is good to me, and He is very good at doing His job at being God.

A really good book for those who are struggling processing rejection, feeling left out and feeling unloved. Something most encounter at some point. It also support those who’s faith has been shaken by repeated encounters with rejection. Helping us understand that God does not have it out for us and is not trying to take us out, rather refining us because He is looking for pure gold. He has an aim to present us back to Himself without spot and without wrinkle. He loves you – dearly – genuinely and uniquely. It is a really supporting read for healing of our thought processes when dealing with rejection.

Highly Recommended ..

Uninvited

 

 

He’s Acquainted with My Grief : Daddy Knows

So this year has been one of the hardest years I’ve had for some time. In fact it has been a tough could of years, however I am still here. Better for it all. I can say that now – had you asked me a few months a go I probably would have side-eyed you and walked away in a full on stink.. I was hurt. I apologise to anyone who got side-eyed.. My Bad!

In a moment of deep despair and sorrow – feeling a deep sense of rejection, disappointment and betrayal, God sent me words of comfort that no other voice could speak.

I had spoken to a few sisters about the period of life that I was in, and many had offered many kind words. Many encouraged me -some with scripture, some with positive words of affirmation, others just got angry and the cause of my hurt – some seemed more angry than I was… Goodness, I had to calm them down.. like breath sister…breath!  But that’s what you call friends.

But in all honesty, none of it was working. None of it. The hurt I was feeling had sunk deep into the pits and the core of my being a place no one can reach.

The words they were offering – while kind, and true and sweet to the taste – none of it was getting to the real core of my pain. The pain I was feeling was not something I had experienced before. I was feeling more than I would express in words. And nothing adds salt to the wounds than feeling hurt and having no one that you can run to to make it all better. I would tell God.. “you mean I have to sit here, in this, by myself?” It was totally distressing. Utterly mortifying to feel like no one really got the way that I was feeling. And because no one knew how I was feeling – no one could fix it. No one.

I’ve talked previously about how I struggle with abandonment and feelings of being alone. This was all of that and a bag of chips rolled up into one messy blubbering mess. literally – BUT GOD!

I sat at my desk on evening and I heard ; Surely He has bore our griefs. He is fully acquainted with your sorrow…

It was a simple statement. Again, I knew parts of the scripture, but I went to read it in full. Isaiah 53.

I read it once.. and I read it again. And I read it again. This scripture lays out the life of Jesus from an emotional point of view. While he was about doing miracles and preaching an so on – Jesus was still very much human. He came in the form of flesh just so he could associate with how we feel – isn’t that amazing. He did that on purpose – JUST so that in times of grief and sorrow we could turn to him because he knows exactly how we feel.

I read the passage and underlined all the things he had endured – each of them related with me – deeply and genuinely. I read it in a number of translations – and it was literally like reading my present situation point for point. Feelings of being despised, rejected, turned on, avoided, pierce, crushed, oppressed, beaten, tormented, unjustly condemned, struck down, buried like a criminal.. all these things I was feeling and felt that I was totally alone in this – totally alone. But I was wrong. God is fully acquainted with my grief.

I wish I could fully articulate how liberating it felt to know that everything I was feeling – God knew and was acquainted with. So when I cry and say

“Daddy it hurts.. I gave my all and they still hurt me” He says “I know baby, I came to give my life for them and they still beat me half to death.. I know”..

When I cry and say “Lord why..? I cant do this”.. I hear Him say “I know it hurts baby, I know.. I wanted the bitter cup to pass too, I know”..

When those that hurt me walk past me like nothing happened and did noting – and I ask God “why?” – He says “I know.. my own disciples rejected me and swore blind they didn’t know me..I know rejection..I know it well baby”

And its not a sympathetic..there there, never mind.. it’s a ..I’ve been there, I’ve felt that, I’m acquainted with it, I fully feel your pain..

I just wanted to remind someone today OR tell you that you are in no shape or terms alone in your grief. Some heart ache is more that just sadness, its full on grief and sorrow you are feeling. Know that your Father is FULLY acquainted with what it is you feel right now. Nothing you are feeling is strange to Him, noting. All those feelings that are tormenting you and the feelings that tell you that you are doing life in isolation is a lie.. there is someone who has walked this road before and is walking it with you right now.. You’re talking to someone who knows…

Today He says “I know baby.. Daddy knows.. ”

God knows

Isaiah 53 Who has believed our message
    and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?
He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
    and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
    nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
He was despised and rejected by mankind,
    a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces
    he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

Surely he took up our pain
    and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God,
    stricken by him, and afflicted.
But he was pierced for our transgressions,
    he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
    and by his wounds we are healed.
We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
    each of us has turned to our own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
    the iniquity of us all.

He was oppressed and afflicted,
    yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
    and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
    so he did not open his mouth.
By oppression[a] and judgment he was taken away.
    Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
    for the transgression of my people he was punished.[b]
He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
    and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
    nor was any deceit in his mouth.

10 Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
    and though the Lord makes[c] his life an offering for sin,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
    and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.
11 After he has suffered,
    he will see the light of life[d] and be satisfied[e];
by his knowledge[f] my righteous servant will justify many,
    and he will bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,[g]
    and he will divide the spoils with the strong,[h]
because he poured out his life unto death,
    and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
    and made intercession for the transgressors.

 

 

 

Strength of your Heart

Wait on the LORD. Be courageous, and he will strengthen your heart. Wait on the LORD! Psalm 27:14

During morning devotion – and no – that doesn’t mean I was sat on a beach front, watching the sunrise winging on a hammock in blissful silence. . . More like sat at my desk, in front of half eaten breakfast taking the few minutes I had between my 7 year old asking me to locate his left shoe, my 12 year old needing to be reminded to use deodorant today and me remembering to pack my lunch.. that I was caught by the scripture. 

You know when you are sat minding your own business and all of a sudden there is a flurry of activity and its like someone hit the download button and all of a sudden there is a surge of information and encouragement. Scriptures are just flying through your head, thoughts are being lined up that are then being layered up with more scriptures.. You don’t.. well I don’t.. even know where the scriptures are taken from but they are coming thick and fast. Almost like the Clark Kent to Superman transformation in a phone box. Often times I don’t even know what to write on which is why I have pens and post-it notes all over my home.. these moments of inspiration just take off and I need to be able to write them down as they come.. I don’t want to miss a single crumb..

So this particular morning, back to the half eaten breakfast – I hear “Wait on the Lord.. Be of good courage, and He will strengthen your heart. Wait I say on the Lord”. I asked myself one question.. – Why, when I am waiting would my heart need strength? Why would it be promised that in my time of waiting that God would be the one to strengthen my heart while I am waiting?

I was reminded of Proverbs 13:12 that states that “Hope deferred, makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life“.

There is something somewhat sickening about waiting..There – I said it.

There is just something about waiting that is unsettling when it has been going on for some while. The proverb suggests that your heart becomes sick when something you have hoped for is delayed, and this is fact. Whether you are waiting for a bus, a delivery, or the microwave – something happens to our hearts in the state of delayed expectations. A strange mix of anxiety and confusion takes us. We know something should be happening about now, we are looking for it, listening out for it, but it’s not turned up. Then here comes the questions – Why has it not turned up? Where is it? When is it coming? How much longer will I be without? what’s going on?

All these are valid questions when waiting, however, after having asked yourself the same question for 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 weeks, maybe 5 months, or the last 5 years, for some decades..(you get the picture) – something happens – literally – something damaging starts to happen. The questions that were once logical and rational have morphed into swards of furry that poke holes in our once whole and sound heart. Turning joyful hope into a toxic slurry of confusion and doubt if we are not careful. Having waited “too long” our heart has become sick..

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Proverbs 4:23 states this: “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it“. When your heart has become sick – believe me – its evident in almost every area of your life. Jesus while talking to a group of Pharisees notes that “..out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks..”(Mthw 12:34). Our heart and its contents are directly linked to what we do and what we say. A sick heart can lead us to do and say some out of Christlike-Character things.. Proverbs 15:13 tells us “A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit”..

heart and mind

And this is why our heart needs strengthening – and reinforcing while we are waiting. God in His wisdom lets us know that if we can do the waiting – He will do the strengthening. This is His promise to us. He is well aware of the potentially effects of waiting for a promise given. He knows we have the tendency to become impatient and flustered and loose hope while waiting. Doubt is both toxic and hazardous in the life of the believer. As is fear – and guaranteed where you find one.. the other wont be far behind.

We owe it to ourselves to check the content of our heart and mouth in relation to things we are still waiting on God for. Have we started speaking negatively about that deferred hope? Have we sided with doubt and decided that maybe God cant? Or maybe you haven’t taken it as far as God can’t.. because that would be unheard of to find something God cant do.. so that cant be it – maybe we have consoled ourselves with the thought that God simply wont..we’ve sold our hopes because they cause us too much pain to bear. I dare not get my hopes up..

I’ll share a thought process I had concerning a wait of mines .. “I can’t, in fact I refuse to go to another wedding without a husband of my own…At LEAST a boyfriend.. and dare anyone ask me to be a bridesmaid… again.. in fact, please don’t even invite me to the wedding.. I don’t really want to know – I just can’t. I don’t want to hear how you wasn’t even looking for a husband .. “but look what the Lord did”…. No .. I’m not shouting with you, put down my tambourine and go away please.. and thank you.. #truestory .. one I’m sure a few of you can relate to. My heart had become so toxic in the season of waiting that I found it difficult to honestly (the key word there) and genuinely celebrate others who had received the answer to MY prayer…  err – excuse me!! – Anyways.. we thank God for deliverance.. I’m still single, but my heart isn’t toxic about it.. !

Now, He didn’t promise to speed things up, or put an automatic end out our wait. That wasn’t the promise. He promises to give us the ability to endure. Not something we do ourselves – something He says that He will take care of. However, should we become weary in the waiting – trust me – it happens.. Psalm 147:3 reminds us that He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds”.

You’ve still got to wait though. I know.. hardly the happy ending you were looking for – but know that God has prepared strength for you in His presence and His word that will strengthen and reinforce your heart while you are waiting. Even if doubt turns up with it’s BFF fear – God has the remedy for both of those.. and its usually wrapped in the demonstration of His love towards us.

Wait on the Lord.. Be of good courage .. and HE WILL strengthen your heart. Wait I say on the Lord..

Until next time..

 

 

Battlefield Of The Mind – Joyce Meyer

 

So this is the first of many book reviews that I will be writing.

I have been reading a lot lately – but let me make this clear, there is nothing with as much impact and informational effect as the word of God. While all these books I read and review are good and supporting to ones life, I am a witness to the life changing power of the undiluted word of God.

Battle Field Of The Mind – Winning The Battle Of The Mind – Joyce Meyer

The Author:

Joyce Meyer is one of the world’s leading practical Bible teachers. A New York Times bestselling author, her books have helped millions of people find hope and restoration through Jesus Christ. Joyce Meyer writes having suffered sexual abuse as a child and the pain of an emotionally abusive first marriage, Joyce discovered the freedom to live victoriously by applying God’s Word to her life and in turn desires to help others do the same. She also survived her battle with breast cancer and she speaks openly and practically about her experiences so others can apply what she has learned to their lives.

Why I Picked It Up:

I have recent begun listening to Joyce Meyer’s podcasts in the morning and I have really taken to her style of speech and ability to just say what needs to be said without the hype. I was listening to a podcast about emotional health and I related to some of the experiences that she shared from her own life. Something that struck out for me was a point of having emotional balance. Something I have been looking for.

Often times our feelings and indeed our emotions have way too much control of our lives. This seeps into our decision making, our reactions, our character all based on something as changeable as our emotions. I was encouraged to establish a base line to my mind. This baseline was rooted and grounded in the word of God. One that says irrespective of what’s going on, who loves me, who stays, who leaves, whats in the bank – my joy isn’t in these things but in God. I can hold my head up high every day because God’s word is settled – His view of me is set – His love for me is everlasting. I have hope, I am blessed, I am loved and these are FACT! Everything else is changeable – if you ground yourself in moving objects you will fall .. painfully and will spend a lot of time chasing after fluctuating images and feelings..

This book reminds you of the power that you have to act on the word of God and take charge over your mind. The devil is after your mind – he knows that if he can take your mind captive he can stop you from believing in God and having faith in His word, and we know from Hebrews 11:6 it is impossible to please God without faith.

Consider this. Romans 10:17 states that Faith comes by Hearing, and Hearing by the word of God. How many times have we sat in a service, or even been home “reading” the bible. And due to the volume of things going on in your mind you haven’t seen or heard a thing that you are listening to or reading. How many times have you come to the end of a chapter and thought.. I have no clue what I just read. The devil knows that if he can stop the word of God getting into your spirit – which works via your soul and is expressed in your actions he has won half the battle. The seed cant take root if it does not get the chance or even the time to take root. (Reed Matthew 13). The devil knows the power of the word of God and the power just a little bit of it can have.

Daniel 7:25 exposes a plan of the wicked one – “to wear out the saints”. How often do things disturb your peace to the point where even after a full nights sleep you do not feel rested. Your mind is non stop with worry, fear, distress, fuss, wondering about this and wandering around in that – no peace, unsettled..the battle is in the mind. Even your prayer life is consumed with complaints and personal stress to the point where you cant even weep for the nations because your mind is taken over with cares – when 1 Peter 5:7 says we should cast our cares on Him because He cares for us, and Psalm 55:22 says that if we cast our cares on Him that He will sustain us… but oh what peace we often forfeit and what needless pains we bear.

Joyce Meyer encourages us to be mindful of the things that are in our mind.. not everything that is found wondering around in there a) belongs there and b) deserves to stay. She reminds us that we have the power to do exactly what 2 Corinthians 10:5 tells us: “Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ”

This basically means that we have the power to control the contents of our mind. We have the right to question the motive of these thoughts – where did you come from? What is your business here? Do you mean me any good? Are you aligned with the Word Of God..? and if the answers are not good.. you have the right to cast it down and bring it into captivity. I have a whooooooole post on this one scripture – last year this scripture literally saved my life having been tormented by what I THOUGHT were my own thoughts… but the devil IS a liar..!

Who Is This Book For:

If you have ever felt as though your emotions and your thoughts seem to have too much control of your life.While we need thoughts and will and feeling and emotions.. they have their place.

If you feel as thought your thoughts turn up and create pure havoc and chaos – feeling as though you just cant get them in check and they quickly become your master with you feeling enslaved to its every will and motive.

If you are genuinely just looking to get a grip… this could be the book for you..

 

Adoption 3/3

My last scripture..

A simple one.. it simply makes it real clear that it is purely by His Spirit that we have the ability and the right to call Him Father.

He has given us His Spirit for several reasons one of which is to imprint Himself on us, as well as support and encourage the work of sanctification whereby we start to look more and more like Him.

Just like any father, He is looking at His children and day by day checking on our progress of looking and becoming more like Him. Now, this is not a judgemental observation He is making, He is all to familiar with our mess and our state, but each day He gives us an opportunity to do better than the day before untill we are fully in His image and likeness. Remember this was how we were created from the book of Genesis .. All He is looking to do is realign us with His original plan for our lives.. this is done withe support of His Spirit .

Romans 8:15 says this; For the Spirit that God has given you does not make you slaves and cause you to be afraid; instead, the Spirit makes you God’s children, and by the Spirit’s power we cry out to God, “Father! my Father!”
(Good News Bible  – GNB)

I chose the GNB version as it really makes a declaration of indeed something that is Good News!

The Spirit that God has given to us is not one thats is to bring us into fear, or dread. We see often in the Old Testament that there was a genuine fear and dread of God even among His own people. There was a lot of running and hiding and looking for alternative to hearing directly from God or His prophets. But this scripture is clearing that all up for us and letting us know that THIS is NOT THAT! The Spirit that we are to (or have) been given has done and will continue to do the work of adoption!

It also ensures a clear separation from any other kinds of spirits that are often looking for a host. This Spirit of God, the Holy Spirit is not looking to enslave, nor torment, nor bring fear. THIS is NOT THAT either.  2 Corinthians 3:17 brings further clarity to this Spirit by letting is know this; “Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty”

This Spirit brings a freedom and a liberty to do something.. yes move mountains.. heal the sick.. raise the dead.. but something also very intimate. Something very personal. Something of great personal value .. the ability to call Him Father.

A few years ago I realised that having been born and raised in church, baptised at the age of 5/6.. knowing a lot about God, that I had not known Him as father. I shared this on a previous post that I understood God.. King.. Creator.. etc..but I had totally missed Father and therefore had missed a whole level of relationship with God. Im on first name terms with my own father and you could say I was the same with God. I didnt know Father.

But this scripture lifted my load when I sat and struggled with how I was supposed to create this father daughter relationship .. I realised and accepted that this was the work of His Spirit that He has given me for this same purpose.. just so I can call Him father.

He gave His Spirit freely..just so that we could come off first name terms and come to know Him and Daddy!

I would enough you to let Go and just let God be God in your life. He has given to us EVERYTHING that pertains to life and godliness . (1 Peter 1;3) According as his divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of him that hath called us to glory and virtue:”)

He’s laid the foundations ..open wide the door.. tell me what more can Jesus do

 

Doubtless: Spiritual Adoption #2

A Happy New Year to you all..

We have to give God thanks for being noting but Faithful towards us all. Believers or not, none of us could say we have made it through on our own strength. Great Are You Lord.

So.. the 2nd in my Spiritual Adoption running …

Today’s scripture is taken from Isaiah 63:16 lets us know that the Fatherhood of God is not about hereditary decent, neither is about nationality but something that is available to all mankind – it reads: (KJV)

Doubtless thou art our father, though Abraham be ignorant of us, and Israel acknowledge us not: thou, O LORD, art our father, our redeemer; thy name is from everlasting

NIV put it this way: But you are our Father, though Abraham does not know us or Israel acknowledge us; you, LORD, are our Father, our Redeemer from of old is your name.

I love this scripture, simply because of the level of assurance and certainty it holds, and encourages me to have in the knowledge of God being my father. SO.. Lets eat.

The scripture opens with a big word. Doubtless. Doubt – Less.. it means certainly.. without a doubt.. The opening statement makes a declaration – that certainly, without a doubt – you are our father. There is no “who’s the daddy?” issues going on, no questions, no confusion about who the daddy is!

Though Abraham be ignorant of us, and Israel acknowledge us not: Now this part made me think. How many of us have fathers and even blood family who are ignorant of us, by choice or otherwise. To be ignorant is to lack knowledge or awareness of something. There are some children in this world who do not know their fathers simply because their fathers are ignorant of them. There is a lack of knowledge of the fact that the child exists. This leads to a distance none the less. The child does not know the father and the father does not know the child. Much like Abraham – who was to bring forth the promised seed by which all the nations of the earth would be blessed – however Abraham wouldn’t know me.. Abraham is of no help to me in my time of trouble. So even though the Jews were deeply connected to both Abraham and Jacob, they were both dead now, and of no direct connection or support to the people of God!

Many of us who have a distance between our fathers are via ignorance or a refusal to acknowledge us. Both hurt. Israel acknowledge us not. This to me is position of choice. There are some of us who have fathers who make the choice not to acknowledge us. It’s not a lack of knowledge or awareness – this is a refusal to accept or admit the existence or truth of something. Again, Jacob in all his power would never look up and claim me. Candace Clarke.. I would have been born not a Jew.. but a gentile. Far from the common wealth of Israel.

Many of us feel that way – abandoned by those who either out of ignorance or a refusal to acknowledge are missing from our life. Leaving gaps in our upbringing, leaving voids in our hearts, misconceptions and miss-connections in our processing.. but keep hope alive – it’s not even about them!

Thou.. pause.. O Lord.. Pause.. Art our father. Read it how its been written. You.. O Lord.. Art Our Father. Feel the emphasis in how it has been written. YOU.. O LORD.. Are My Father. Despite who wants me, despite who accepts me, despite who wants to acknowledge me as their child.. despite all of that – You.. Oh Lord.. Are my Father.

Our Redeemer is your name for everlasting. Forever and ever our father will also be our redeemer. To redeem means to compensate for the faults or bad aspects or something, it also talks of regaining possession in exchange for a payment. This we know that God has done in  such an extreme way with the sacrifice of Jesus on the Cross. The price was paid for Him to reclaim us to Himself and His family.

Doubtless  – Thou – Art – My – Father.. they are not just words, it’s an assured declaration that we have every right to make over our lives. We have the ability to make this statement with as much assurance as the people of God did when they were faced with problems and crisis beyond their comprehension. They were making a statement that we are your children – you have to come through for us.

DOUBTLESS – THOU – ART – MY – FATHER !

Bless you Loves x

 

 

 

It was the time for love : Spiritual Adoption #1

Now when I passed by thee, and looked upon thee, behold, thy time was the time of love; and I spread my skirt over thee, and covered thy nakedness: yea, I sware unto thee, and entered into a covenant with thee, saith the Lord GOD, and thou becamest mine. Ezekiel 16:8

I’m going to use my hands to pull this scripture apart – think of it like tear and share bread! We are going to eat.. and at the end we are going to sit and let it digest.. !

Jesus is passing this way. The woman at the well was minding her own business unaware of the spiritual drought and deficit in her life. Jesus made the choice, He purpose to pass her way. Knowing that salvation would reach her by none other. He made / fixed an opportunity to pass her way. Knowing not only would salvation come to her that day, but via her testimony others too would receive life, and life

Jesus is passing this way. The woman with the issue of blood had a need. While she was not His intended destination, He was still passing her way. This one took the opportunity to cross paths with Him. She wasn’t looking to interrupt His journey, she didn’t even intend to have a conversation with Him. She just knew that this was her chance. Jesus was passing her way.

Jesus is purposefully passing my way. He sees my condition. He sees my state. He sees the void, the emptiness, the pain, the shame and the embarrassment and He’s passing my way just for me.

Why is he passing my way? Because He knows that I can’t do this thing by myself. He knows that if left to me I would be a write off in a matter of days maybe even hours. He knows that He is the only one that can make all this better. He alone knows how to stop the bleeding just ask the woman with the issue of blood. He alone knows how to call life from death just ask Lazerus.

Jesus is intently passing my way. Ultimately because He loves me. While I have no business here, no right, no inheritance, this makes it all his choice. Knowing the limitations, knowing I’m far from worthy, He is still passing my way because He wants ME. Ultimately He’s already paid the price for me redeeming me back to himself because I am what and who He wants. He is done with the tents and the tabernacles now He wants me. So He is passing my way to come and get me.

He’s passing my way he looked at me “behold thy time was the time of love”. He called time.

He called time, having wondered in my own way, filthy, naked, broken, bleeding He’s taken this all in when He looked at me and decided now was the time for love. Enough of the of being hounded by the past, enough of the hurts, the anxiety and depression, enough was enough, time for love now! He called time.

He called time on the season. While it was good for me to be afflicted that I might learn your statuses, eventually someone has to call time (ask Job). While we all have our limits everyone’s much is different,eventually someone has to call time and say enough is enough now. Boxing comes to mind. Sometimes the contender has been beaten so badly and is now delirious thinking they can go on but there is always someone who can proxy for that irrational state and call time. Sometimes we don’t even know when enough is enough, but He called time.

He called time on the suffering, time on the weeping and brought the morning. He called time on the guilt and  un-forgiveness that worked like acid, painful corrosive destructive  He called time. It was time for love!

It was time for love. Now love is not love till it’s been given away. There wasn’t a dialogue, there was no discussion  no judgement, nothing. The time was a time of love, a time to do and what is it that he did? He made me His.

Divine care, He spread his skirt over me. This was an act of ownership, selecting, choosing, identifying once choice. He put His skirt over me you can ask Ruth how that feels. He took what was used to cover Himself to cover me too. He brought me in, took me under to cover my nakedness. This He did for me. He took his righteousness and covered my nakedness as I had no means or method or way of doing this myself. Revelations 3:17 talks of a people who didn’t even know that they would naked, wretched, poor, but when He came by and looked at us He knew and He also knew that we had no means of covering ourselves so He did this for us. For me.. for you! The act of justification and redemption in one beautiful act. Garments were often used as coverlets, and the act described was therefore, as in Ruth 3:9 the received symbol of a completed marriage. Through this act; He became mine and I became His.

Then He swore unto us, entered into an agreement with us. Now who better to enter into an agreement then with the God who’s words are settled in the heavens, who changes not, and is not a man that He should lie, nor the son of man that he should repent. He makes a long standing agreement with us – enters into a marriage with us, making it clear that we are His.

And Thou Becamest Mine… this hit home with me! Personally I have always struggled with belonging – not feeling that I really belong to someone can be quite troublesome when it comes to relationships, self confidence, self esteem. You hear of teens at various stages of their lives going to “find themselves”.. assuming because they just don’t feel they belong anywhere. But this statement got to the core of me.

After passing by me, after looking at me, after calling my time of love, covering me with his own righteousness, taking me in, making a vow and agreement with me I have now become HIS!

ADOPTION PROCESS COMPLETED 

Beautiful right… Thou becamest mine! say it out loud…. let it digest!

Thou Becamest MINE!