I finally see you

Every day I go through my tube station.. walking roughly around 80mph.. rush hour and all, but I always slow my pace to read the notice board.. today was absolutely transformational, and so on point for me. It simply said:

“its not what you look at, it’s what you see”

My mind was now racing with thoughts of a current struggle I was having being ignored by my Narcissist Ex. If I’m honest, it’s been difficult to share any kind of space with him, and then for him to ignore my existence was leaving me shredded to bits each and every time. I was actually tempted to break no contact and contact him..asking him why he was ignoring me, if I had done something to offend him to the extent that he couldn’t even acknowledge me.. it was and has been torture for me.

But this humble statement echoed in my head and deeper. I realise I was seeing him all wrong. Still delusional to think he was well, and so expecting basic kindness from him. And these expectations were driving my disappointment and my despair..I was seeing this all wrong..

In my thought I wrote the following on my journey home..

What exactly am I seeing when I see you that makes me think I require your acknowledgement? What of you do I see that makes me think you’re kind, well put together, healthy, genuine, whole?

Clearly I’m still delusional to think you are what I thought I saw.

You blinded me with your charm. Coloured my vision with you lies. Captivated all I knew and understood with your mess. And in this I believed you to be true. That’s what I saw. What I thought to be you. But that wasn’t you boo, it wasnt even me.

We were both lost. Neither of us knew our left from our right. Neither of us knew the shade of true love and yet we entered war.. assuming we would win each other over.. I saw my heart and love as enough to save you from yourself.. and you lead me to believe you would and could reciprocate it in excess. Blind leading the blind.. you wasnt what I was looking at, I was seeing what I wanted to see..

But I see you now. I see you. For who you really are. Sick, flawed, unwell, toxic, broken.. I see you. No malicious intent, no roots of bitterness. I’m not turning into a Angry Black Woman over this. When you come to mind I ask God to help you.. that’s all, help. But, in seeing you for you, I am released from expecting, released from requiring, released from disappointments.

It’s really not what you look at, but what you see…

Be encouraged

He’s Acquainted with My Grief : Daddy Knows

So this year has been one of the hardest years I’ve had for some time. In fact it has been a tough could of years, however I am still here. Better for it all. I can say that now – had you asked me a few months a go I probably would have side-eyed you and walked away in a full on stink.. I was hurt. I apologise to anyone who got side-eyed.. My Bad!

In a moment of deep despair and sorrow – feeling a deep sense of rejection, disappointment and betrayal, God sent me words of comfort that no other voice could speak.

I had spoken to a few sisters about the period of life that I was in, and many had offered many kind words. Many encouraged me -some with scripture, some with positive words of affirmation, others just got angry and the cause of my hurt – some seemed more angry than I was… Goodness, I had to calm them down.. like breath sister…breath!  But that’s what you call friends.

But in all honesty, none of it was working. None of it. The hurt I was feeling had sunk deep into the pits and the core of my being a place no one can reach.

The words they were offering – while kind, and true and sweet to the taste – none of it was getting to the real core of my pain. The pain I was feeling was not something I had experienced before. I was feeling more than I would express in words. And nothing adds salt to the wounds than feeling hurt and having no one that you can run to to make it all better. I would tell God.. “you mean I have to sit here, in this, by myself?” It was totally distressing. Utterly mortifying to feel like no one really got the way that I was feeling. And because no one knew how I was feeling – no one could fix it. No one.

I’ve talked previously about how I struggle with abandonment and feelings of being alone. This was all of that and a bag of chips rolled up into one messy blubbering mess. literally – BUT GOD!

I sat at my desk on evening and I heard ; Surely He has bore our griefs. He is fully acquainted with your sorrow…

It was a simple statement. Again, I knew parts of the scripture, but I went to read it in full. Isaiah 53.

I read it once.. and I read it again. And I read it again. This scripture lays out the life of Jesus from an emotional point of view. While he was about doing miracles and preaching an so on – Jesus was still very much human. He came in the form of flesh just so he could associate with how we feel – isn’t that amazing. He did that on purpose – JUST so that in times of grief and sorrow we could turn to him because he knows exactly how we feel.

I read the passage and underlined all the things he had endured – each of them related with me – deeply and genuinely. I read it in a number of translations – and it was literally like reading my present situation point for point. Feelings of being despised, rejected, turned on, avoided, pierce, crushed, oppressed, beaten, tormented, unjustly condemned, struck down, buried like a criminal.. all these things I was feeling and felt that I was totally alone in this – totally alone. But I was wrong. God is fully acquainted with my grief.

I wish I could fully articulate how liberating it felt to know that everything I was feeling – God knew and was acquainted with. So when I cry and say

“Daddy it hurts.. I gave my all and they still hurt me” He says “I know baby, I came to give my life for them and they still beat me half to death.. I know”..

When I cry and say “Lord why..? I cant do this”.. I hear Him say “I know it hurts baby, I know.. I wanted the bitter cup to pass too, I know”..

When those that hurt me walk past me like nothing happened and did noting – and I ask God “why?” – He says “I know.. my own disciples rejected me and swore blind they didn’t know me..I know rejection..I know it well baby”

And its not a sympathetic..there there, never mind.. it’s a ..I’ve been there, I’ve felt that, I’m acquainted with it, I fully feel your pain..

I just wanted to remind someone today OR tell you that you are in no shape or terms alone in your grief. Some heart ache is more that just sadness, its full on grief and sorrow you are feeling. Know that your Father is FULLY acquainted with what it is you feel right now. Nothing you are feeling is strange to Him, noting. All those feelings that are tormenting you and the feelings that tell you that you are doing life in isolation is a lie.. there is someone who has walked this road before and is walking it with you right now.. You’re talking to someone who knows…

Today He says “I know baby.. Daddy knows.. ”

God knows

Isaiah 53 Who has believed our message
    and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?
He grew up before him like a tender shoot,
    and like a root out of dry ground.
He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him,
    nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.
He was despised and rejected by mankind,
    a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.
Like one from whom people hide their faces
    he was despised, and we held him in low esteem.

Surely he took up our pain
    and bore our suffering,
yet we considered him punished by God,
    stricken by him, and afflicted.
But he was pierced for our transgressions,
    he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was on him,
    and by his wounds we are healed.
We all, like sheep, have gone astray,
    each of us has turned to our own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
    the iniquity of us all.

He was oppressed and afflicted,
    yet he did not open his mouth;
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
    and as a sheep before its shearers is silent,
    so he did not open his mouth.
By oppression[a] and judgment he was taken away.
    Yet who of his generation protested?
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
    for the transgression of my people he was punished.[b]
He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
    and with the rich in his death,
though he had done no violence,
    nor was any deceit in his mouth.

10 Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer,
    and though the Lord makes[c] his life an offering for sin,
he will see his offspring and prolong his days,
    and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.
11 After he has suffered,
    he will see the light of life[d] and be satisfied[e];
by his knowledge[f] my righteous servant will justify many,
    and he will bear their iniquities.
12 Therefore I will give him a portion among the great,[g]
    and he will divide the spoils with the strong,[h]
because he poured out his life unto death,
    and was numbered with the transgressors.
For he bore the sin of many,
    and made intercession for the transgressors.

 

 

 

Strength of your Heart

Wait on the LORD. Be courageous, and he will strengthen your heart. Wait on the LORD! Psalm 27:14

During morning devotion – and no – that doesn’t mean I was sat on a beach front, watching the sunrise winging on a hammock in blissful silence. . . More like sat at my desk, in front of half eaten breakfast taking the few minutes I had between my 7 year old asking me to locate his left shoe, my 12 year old needing to be reminded to use deodorant today and me remembering to pack my lunch.. that I was caught by the scripture. 

You know when you are sat minding your own business and all of a sudden there is a flurry of activity and its like someone hit the download button and all of a sudden there is a surge of information and encouragement. Scriptures are just flying through your head, thoughts are being lined up that are then being layered up with more scriptures.. You don’t.. well I don’t.. even know where the scriptures are taken from but they are coming thick and fast. Almost like the Clark Kent to Superman transformation in a phone box. Often times I don’t even know what to write on which is why I have pens and post-it notes all over my home.. these moments of inspiration just take off and I need to be able to write them down as they come.. I don’t want to miss a single crumb..

So this particular morning, back to the half eaten breakfast – I hear “Wait on the Lord.. Be of good courage, and He will strengthen your heart. Wait I say on the Lord”. I asked myself one question.. – Why, when I am waiting would my heart need strength? Why would it be promised that in my time of waiting that God would be the one to strengthen my heart while I am waiting?

I was reminded of Proverbs 13:12 that states that “Hope deferred, makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life“.

There is something somewhat sickening about waiting..There – I said it.

There is just something about waiting that is unsettling when it has been going on for some while. The proverb suggests that your heart becomes sick when something you have hoped for is delayed, and this is fact. Whether you are waiting for a bus, a delivery, or the microwave – something happens to our hearts in the state of delayed expectations. A strange mix of anxiety and confusion takes us. We know something should be happening about now, we are looking for it, listening out for it, but it’s not turned up. Then here comes the questions – Why has it not turned up? Where is it? When is it coming? How much longer will I be without? what’s going on?

All these are valid questions when waiting, however, after having asked yourself the same question for 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 weeks, maybe 5 months, or the last 5 years, for some decades..(you get the picture) – something happens – literally – something damaging starts to happen. The questions that were once logical and rational have morphed into swards of furry that poke holes in our once whole and sound heart. Turning joyful hope into a toxic slurry of confusion and doubt if we are not careful. Having waited “too long” our heart has become sick..

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Proverbs 4:23 states this: “Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it“. When your heart has become sick – believe me – its evident in almost every area of your life. Jesus while talking to a group of Pharisees notes that “..out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks..”(Mthw 12:34). Our heart and its contents are directly linked to what we do and what we say. A sick heart can lead us to do and say some out of Christlike-Character things.. Proverbs 15:13 tells us “A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit”..

heart and mind

And this is why our heart needs strengthening – and reinforcing while we are waiting. God in His wisdom lets us know that if we can do the waiting – He will do the strengthening. This is His promise to us. He is well aware of the potentially effects of waiting for a promise given. He knows we have the tendency to become impatient and flustered and loose hope while waiting. Doubt is both toxic and hazardous in the life of the believer. As is fear – and guaranteed where you find one.. the other wont be far behind.

We owe it to ourselves to check the content of our heart and mouth in relation to things we are still waiting on God for. Have we started speaking negatively about that deferred hope? Have we sided with doubt and decided that maybe God cant? Or maybe you haven’t taken it as far as God can’t.. because that would be unheard of to find something God cant do.. so that cant be it – maybe we have consoled ourselves with the thought that God simply wont..we’ve sold our hopes because they cause us too much pain to bear. I dare not get my hopes up..

I’ll share a thought process I had concerning a wait of mines .. “I can’t, in fact I refuse to go to another wedding without a husband of my own…At LEAST a boyfriend.. and dare anyone ask me to be a bridesmaid… again.. in fact, please don’t even invite me to the wedding.. I don’t really want to know – I just can’t. I don’t want to hear how you wasn’t even looking for a husband .. “but look what the Lord did”…. No .. I’m not shouting with you, put down my tambourine and go away please.. and thank you.. #truestory .. one I’m sure a few of you can relate to. My heart had become so toxic in the season of waiting that I found it difficult to honestly (the key word there) and genuinely celebrate others who had received the answer to MY prayer…  err – excuse me!! – Anyways.. we thank God for deliverance.. I’m still single, but my heart isn’t toxic about it.. !

Now, He didn’t promise to speed things up, or put an automatic end out our wait. That wasn’t the promise. He promises to give us the ability to endure. Not something we do ourselves – something He says that He will take care of. However, should we become weary in the waiting – trust me – it happens.. Psalm 147:3 reminds us that He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds”.

You’ve still got to wait though. I know.. hardly the happy ending you were looking for – but know that God has prepared strength for you in His presence and His word that will strengthen and reinforce your heart while you are waiting. Even if doubt turns up with it’s BFF fear – God has the remedy for both of those.. and its usually wrapped in the demonstration of His love towards us.

Wait on the Lord.. Be of good courage .. and HE WILL strengthen your heart. Wait I say on the Lord..

Until next time..

 

 

Battlefield Of The Mind – Joyce Meyer

 

So this is the first of many book reviews that I will be writing.

I have been reading a lot lately – but let me make this clear, there is nothing with as much impact and informational effect as the word of God. While all these books I read and review are good and supporting to ones life, I am a witness to the life changing power of the undiluted word of God.

Battle Field Of The Mind – Winning The Battle Of The Mind – Joyce Meyer

The Author:

Joyce Meyer is one of the world’s leading practical Bible teachers. A New York Times bestselling author, her books have helped millions of people find hope and restoration through Jesus Christ. Joyce Meyer writes having suffered sexual abuse as a child and the pain of an emotionally abusive first marriage, Joyce discovered the freedom to live victoriously by applying God’s Word to her life and in turn desires to help others do the same. She also survived her battle with breast cancer and she speaks openly and practically about her experiences so others can apply what she has learned to their lives.

Why I Picked It Up:

I have recent begun listening to Joyce Meyer’s podcasts in the morning and I have really taken to her style of speech and ability to just say what needs to be said without the hype. I was listening to a podcast about emotional health and I related to some of the experiences that she shared from her own life. Something that struck out for me was a point of having emotional balance. Something I have been looking for.

Often times our feelings and indeed our emotions have way too much control of our lives. This seeps into our decision making, our reactions, our character all based on something as changeable as our emotions. I was encouraged to establish a base line to my mind. This baseline was rooted and grounded in the word of God. One that says irrespective of what’s going on, who loves me, who stays, who leaves, whats in the bank – my joy isn’t in these things but in God. I can hold my head up high every day because God’s word is settled – His view of me is set – His love for me is everlasting. I have hope, I am blessed, I am loved and these are FACT! Everything else is changeable – if you ground yourself in moving objects you will fall .. painfully and will spend a lot of time chasing after fluctuating images and feelings..

This book reminds you of the power that you have to act on the word of God and take charge over your mind. The devil is after your mind – he knows that if he can take your mind captive he can stop you from believing in God and having faith in His word, and we know from Hebrews 11:6 it is impossible to please God without faith.

Consider this. Romans 10:17 states that Faith comes by Hearing, and Hearing by the word of God. How many times have we sat in a service, or even been home “reading” the bible. And due to the volume of things going on in your mind you haven’t seen or heard a thing that you are listening to or reading. How many times have you come to the end of a chapter and thought.. I have no clue what I just read. The devil knows that if he can stop the word of God getting into your spirit – which works via your soul and is expressed in your actions he has won half the battle. The seed cant take root if it does not get the chance or even the time to take root. (Reed Matthew 13). The devil knows the power of the word of God and the power just a little bit of it can have.

Daniel 7:25 exposes a plan of the wicked one – “to wear out the saints”. How often do things disturb your peace to the point where even after a full nights sleep you do not feel rested. Your mind is non stop with worry, fear, distress, fuss, wondering about this and wandering around in that – no peace, unsettled..the battle is in the mind. Even your prayer life is consumed with complaints and personal stress to the point where you cant even weep for the nations because your mind is taken over with cares – when 1 Peter 5:7 says we should cast our cares on Him because He cares for us, and Psalm 55:22 says that if we cast our cares on Him that He will sustain us… but oh what peace we often forfeit and what needless pains we bear.

Joyce Meyer encourages us to be mindful of the things that are in our mind.. not everything that is found wondering around in there a) belongs there and b) deserves to stay. She reminds us that we have the power to do exactly what 2 Corinthians 10:5 tells us: “Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ”

This basically means that we have the power to control the contents of our mind. We have the right to question the motive of these thoughts – where did you come from? What is your business here? Do you mean me any good? Are you aligned with the Word Of God..? and if the answers are not good.. you have the right to cast it down and bring it into captivity. I have a whooooooole post on this one scripture – last year this scripture literally saved my life having been tormented by what I THOUGHT were my own thoughts… but the devil IS a liar..!

Who Is This Book For:

If you have ever felt as though your emotions and your thoughts seem to have too much control of your life.While we need thoughts and will and feeling and emotions.. they have their place.

If you feel as thought your thoughts turn up and create pure havoc and chaos – feeling as though you just cant get them in check and they quickly become your master with you feeling enslaved to its every will and motive.

If you are genuinely just looking to get a grip… this could be the book for you..

 

There is a stream

Isaiah 40:1 Comfort ye, comfort ye my people, saith your God

There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the tabernacles of the most High. (Psalms 46:4)

There is a stream that makes glad the city of God. The Psalmist goes on to say that “God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved: God shall help her, and that right early”

These are two of the scriptures that I have up on my wall. A constant reminder that I am not alone. I often have this overwhelming feeling of feeling like I am fighting this battle of life alone. Pouring out in so many directions but having very little coming back in. Feeling like an emotional ATM Machine, people turning up, making withdraws – often where they didn’t even make any deposits – eventually leaving me in the red. It seems to be a constant cycle I am in. (I’m working on it!)

But I am encouraged to know that there is a River…!

Looking at the purpose and functions of a stream:

  • Brings food to the city
  • Means of transport
  • Source of life to the land and its inhabitants
  • Cleaning and Cleansing

This stream is very much in the midst of us. Providing support, food, life to us at all times. We are not alone and we have not been left without – the streams make glad the city of God.

Psalms 1:3 tells of the benefits of being by this river “and he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper”

This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord. We have the privilege of being planted by the rivers. We have access to the substance we need when we remain by the river. The healthiest and greenest of trees are the ones you find beside the river.

There is a stream …

 

 

 

20/20 Vision

Matthew 9: 27-31

In this scripture tells a story of Jesus healing two blind men. Jesus in his ministry seems very interested in healing the blind.

Our natural sight is a every important part of our senses. Have you ever been walking and something gets in your eye. Automatically you STOP. Why? because your body knows you are in automatic and sudden danger if you can no longer see where you are going. Your eyes allow insight to your surroundings. Providing information to your brain that will allow it to make decisions for your next action. Even with limited vision, you don’t walk with assurance or strength, because your mind knows you’ve not acquired 100% of the information needed to make an informed decision about what to do next. Sight is very important. Often time our progress is limited by impaired sight.

You can be near sighted. This means that you are able to see things that are close to you, near to you, but you are unable to see clearly the things that are a far off. You can also be farsighted. This is when you are able to see things that are further way, in the distance, but you are unable to make out thing that are close to you. 20/20 vision is where you are able to clearly comprehend both near and far.

As in the natural – so in the Spiritual.

Sometimes we get into positions where our Spiritual Sight is somewhat impaired. We can be become Spiritually Near Sighted – we are content and see clearly the things that are near to us. We can see the current things that are in front of us, but we are unable to comprehend the things that are a far off.. We find it difficult to see whats coming. God has said He will do it, but we just can’t see it.

Abram (at the time) in Genesis 12 was called by God and was told by God Himself that he was going to make him a great nation. He was going to make one man.. an entire nation! This promise was repeated several times to Abram in dreams and in visions. In Chapter 15 you see Abram’s Nearsightedness. He talks of the steward of his house having a child and that, that child would be his heir. Abram had heard the promise and attributed it to the child he could see. (Chap 15:2+3). Abram had, had no child of his own, but was looking for a child, and could only see the on in his house, he was unable to see the one that God had spoken of which was a far off. Seeing this God specifies to Abram that the child he was looking for was to be from his own seed. So this clarifies what Abram is looking for a little more. However, still childless, still near sighted, and now 100 , he and his wife agree he would take Hagar and have a child. While this fulfilled the fact that it was Abram’s seed, this was still not the promised child.

They were able to comprehend the now, but were not able to see the future. It wasn’t until the promise had been shared with Sarah that the penny dropped – they understood exactly what they were looking for and indeed at. While it seemed laughable – it was clear how this child was to come and exactly who it was coming by.

Often times we lack 20/20 vision, we are unable to see the blessing and provision of God because we are too busy worrying about the future. Or, we are so consumed with all that we are currently in that we are not able to have faith to see things that are still a far off. Working hard for the now with no thought for the future or the bigger picture.

God has a predefined plan for all of us, but our sight is very important to the success of the mission we are on. Just like Abram, often times because we cant see it we take matters into our own hand. I don’t think we mean to mess up the plan, but we in our limited sight simply can not comprehend something because we have no sight of it. We are on a mission for God and require the right vision and sight to be able to walk this journey correctly.

We like the men who were blind need to have the mind to ask for and have faith for our sight.

Prayer:

Lord, I ask that you would indeed touch our eyes and that according to our faith, that we would receive our sight to clearly comprehend all that you are. God of the now and God of the future. that we would not become consumed with the present, or the future to the point where we loose focus and correct perception of where we are. Ultimately Lord, help us to keep our eyes on you – Captain of our Soul, Author of our Faith – Amen.

Keep Your Eyes On God

Where are your eyes? Often time the things we see go on to affect our subsequent action. It’s important that we as believers have a grip on what and where our focus is.

To be focused is to keep our attention on Him.

Matthew 14:24-31 KJV

But the ship was now in the midst of the sea, tossed with waves: for the wind was contrary.  And in the fourth watch of the night Jesus went unto them, walking on the sea.  And when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were troubled, saying, It is a spirit; and they cried out for fear.  But straightway Jesus spake unto them, saying, Be of good cheer; it is I; be not afraid.  And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water.  And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.  But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.  And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?”

A good place to put your eyes and focus: Psalms 121:1-2 KJV I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.  My help cometh from the Lord , which made heaven and earth.

The benefits of keeping your focus on God, He’s the only one with insights into your future. Jeremiah 29:11 KJV For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord , thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

When you face trials it can be very easy, in fact too easy as its a natural human reaction to be fixated on what seems like the greater power – the problem. But God’s words provide us with the assurance we need to make a choice to focus on God who has all power.Job 23:10 KJV But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold.

If you wanted to know the ins and outs of a story, who better to talk to than the actual author. God has predestined every aspect of our lives to the finest details. He has planned orchestrated our life in His wisdom and love. So who better to focus on and follow than God? He knows how the story ends.. #spoileralert WE WIN! Hebrews 12:2 KJV “Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith”

Life is full of distractions, often the aim of which is to plant our aims and hopes in a feeble, lesser power that will ultimately fail us. The enemy knows the power we would possess and the benefits we would obtain from just having MUSTARD SEED size faith in God.

Try Looking Away From:

– Yourself; beauty,  humanity,  skills, talent, own abilities. Prov 14:12 reminds us that; “There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death” Each of us would have our preferred method of doing things, a way that makes sense to us. But we all need to take account of the fact that we are on a journey, one that has a very particular route that we are require to keep to if we want to make it to the promise land. It’s not really about us, but what it is that God would have us do at all times. Not my will!

-Man : expectations of another humans: Jeremiah 17:5-8 , “Thus saith the Lord ; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the Lord .  For he shall be like the heath in the desert, and shall not see when good cometh; but shall inhabit the parched places in the wilderness, in a salt land and not inhabited.  Blessed is the man that trusteth in the Lord , and whose hope the Lord is.  For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit” The scripture goes on to talk about how wicked the heart can be and that it cant be trusted. Often times we assume others intentions towards us are good and would want the best for us, but this is not always the case. Again, who better to trust than your creator.
-Alternatives: stop looking for everyone else and everything else. People in the 3rd world and deprived nations only have God,  which is why they seemingly receive so much from God. They literally have no other helper. They have no plan B, they have no back-up plan, they have no other person to call other than Jesus. This is trusting the Lord with ALL your heart. Not looking at or even considering others, simply  looking unto Jesus (Hebrews 12.2)

-The situation/ environment : the winds the waves, the fire. Refuse and Reject anxiety,  worried, fears. He that keepeth Israel neither slubers or sleeps. (Ps 120) He is very much aware of where you are and what you face.

-Looking back… God is Ahead!
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before. Philippians 3:13.

My friend.. the wind will blow.. the storms will rage..life at times will flip you upside down. But its ok. This is life.. it’s not an all inclusive life time holiday in the Bahamas. The aim is to be presented back to God, having been born in sin, as pure gold. This is going to take some rough and tumble, some heat, some pain, some pressing, but keep your eyes on the end goal, be assured that God has got you. Be confident that He is ever present and He knows what He is doing!

What Do You Have?? – Red Sea Faith

Exodus 14 tells us of the account of the Children of Israel having come out of 400 years of slavery and now in some what of a predicament. They had made camp on the side of the sea, during this time the heart of the king of Egypt was full of regret for having let them go in the first place and had gathered 600 of his choice chariots and men of war and were set to recover the Children of Israel.

The children of Israel seeing these men in chariots and horses were very afraid. So much so they turned on Moses and asked him why he had taken them out of Egypt in the first place. They asked him if there wasn’t any graves in Egypt for them to die in why he had taken them to die in a wilderness! Moses did his best to encourage them to stand still and see the salvation of God, but at the same time he turned is concerns to God.. I often think that he too must have seen the army coming, the mountains on either side and this HUGE sea in front of them.While telling the people of God to be calm I can imagine that his own heart must have been going a mile a minute wondering to himself “God.. what now??”

This is a common position for the believer. Feeling like we have no where to turn. We cant even go back, because of the evil that way. Many of us would never consider going back due to the people and lifestyle that occupy those paths.. Cant go left or right because there are mountains there. These represent large blockages, things that seem bigger than us, situations that seem to tower over us with an impenetrable presence. Fear.. Doubt.. Shame.. The Past.. you know the mountains I talk about. In front of you .. a Sea. This can often times represent things that would look to drown us, carry us away, sweep us off our feet.. for me this is things like emotions, perceptions etc. These things move and change and can be of silent but great force if allowed the freedom to do so. They were at what seemed like a dead end.

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Sometimes we are come to these dead end places in our lives, just so that God can get our attention. Moses and the Children of Israel had no where else to look. The Children of Israel had followed Moses out of Egypt. He had been the instigator of this move being driven by God. Physically they had followed him out, hence why at the first sign of trouble (and often times in there 40 yrs of wondering) they turned to Moses and looked to blame him. But Moses, knowing his position had no where else but to turn, but to God.

Sometimes we too get reliant on individuals being there to lead us out of a situation that we forget that it is GOD who has called us, its GOD who has made all the promises to be there and help us, its GOD who has seen our end from our beginning.. Sometimes these dead end situations come where we have no where to look other than UP!

And the interesting thing about it. While Moses is looking up and looking for God to intervene – God is looking right back at Moses and asking him what he has in his hands.

You see sisters.. we are a finished work. Jesus uttered three words before He died on the cross.. It, Is, Finished. All that was needed to be done was done. This plan of redemption that was put in place before the foundation of the world (remember there are no surprises to God, so the fall of man from the Garden was not the start of the plan, just part of the plan). God hasn’t got anything more to be doing now. He’s finished. This situation was not a surprise to God for Him now to try and figure a way out for them.. Moses had this rod.. probably of no real significance to him – until now..!

God told him to stretch out the thing he already had in his possession. This is an example of the finished work of God. Our deliverance is often time in our own possession. That little pot of oil that the woman had in her house – likely she felt it was of no use, not what she needed being in debt and her sons about to be taken from her. It was of such little value that when she was asked what is in your house she said – nothing.

Sisters – the means to your deliverance is already in your possession. Often times its that thing we have been doing for years, that thing we do without thinking, that little praise that you have left in you, that verse of scripture that you have remembered from Sunday School that just turns up, the one and only verse of the song you know, even the one line of a song. The rod was not only for the deliverance of Moses, but the Children of Israel. The pot of oil the mother had didn’t only get her out of debt and save her the heart ache of loosing her children, but it saved the lives of her sons.. and buy selling the oil, she was making provision for others!!!!

If you have been brought to a situation – remember the work of Calvary is one that is completed. God is not watching you enter a situation and then having to try and figure things out, your deliverance is already at hand, its already present, its already available.

I will leave you with the same question the Prophet asked the woman.. and God asked Moses… what do you have!!??

 

 

Create Your Own Opportunity

The woman with the issue of blood. One of the accounts in the bible that gives me life every time I read it. Amazingly, it’s always new life. There is always something else that I see that encourages me to live again, press again, stretch again, reach out again, live again!

This woman shows that Desperation = Deliverance. Being casual and indifferent about a situation won’t get you to your breakthrough. You’ve got to really want it and at times do things outside of the norm to get it.

Maintaining your composure as if you don’t really care either way wont really get you anywhere either. Desperate people will constantly be listening and waiting to hear and feel that God is near or that He is passing their way just to get something from God. They are just waiting for the opportunity to get in the same vicinity as the only one who can make a difference to their situation, and if they have to they will create the opportunity themselves.

We read about how this woman had suffered for 12 years. The account from the book of Mark tells us that she had suffered at the hands of many and had also lost all her money. So not only was so socially unaccepted, ostracised, considered an out cast, considered unclean buy all, she was BROKE! Hardly a good mix of conditions, but she was not about to let that stop her. She was desperate now.

Jesus was on his was to another man’s house. He had been sitting to a meal when another desperate man turned up asking for help for his daughter who was dead. While on his way the crowds as per usual around Jesus, but there was desperate woman among them today. This woman was doing SO much that seemed SO wrong for her and her condition

A woman in her condition was not supposed to be out in public unannounced. She was to announce her self wherever she went so people could move out of her way. She was not supposed to be in crowds, peradventure she touch someone, or someone touch her. This woman wasn’t even going to talk to Jesus about her condition. We see often times when Jesus performed miracles there was some kind of engagement, some kind of dialogue between Jesus and the person being healed, but this woman was too desperate to even engage in conversation. Her moment had come and she was looking to maximise this opportunity.

She had already made up in her mind what was going to happen. She had already created the opportunity and environment all by her self and she was ready to go and get what she needed. She wasn’t going to ask, she was just going to go and touch Jesus. Such was her assurance of the power that was in Jesus. Such was her faith, that she wasn’t going to ask him to touch her.. she was going to touch him!

I’ve been encouraged, so I’m sharing my encouragement (Caring is Sharing right!)… Don’t get into the habit of waiting for things to happen before you think God can deliver you. When Jesus died on the cross – that moment the curtain was split – we were all automatically given free access to Jesus and all the power that He holds. Some of us are wrapped into the traditions of needing a particular day, and a particular service, with a particular preacher who needs to preach a particular message. They then have to then call a particular alter call, and have to be prayed for by a particular person for deliverance. No way would God make deliverance so complicated!

All you have to do, like the woman, is make up in your own mind that today – right now- this instance, is my time to be delivered. So long as you and your faith are ready, deliverance is available to you.

 

The Rest Of The Armour

In my last blog post I spoke about the Belt of Absolute Truth and how important truth is to the believer..But we can’t forget the rest of the armour…

Breastplate of Righteousness

Righteousness talks of the quality of being morally right, or justified. It talks of goodness, virtue, uprightness. A breastplate has the function of covering the chest. A large majority of the vital organs are in this area of the body. Essentially the heart. We understand that the issues of life flow from the heart (Prov :4:23) We also hear that the heart of man is desperately wicked according to Jeremiah 17:9. We also understand that this armour is not our armour, so this covering of righteousness is not one that we have established, not one that we have created. If we were left to create this covering with our own righteousness it would malfunction at the first opportunity because our own righteousness is of no effect when it comes to warfare. It’s the righteousness of God that protect our hear and acts as a filter to what comes in and what comes out from the heart. The virtue of God covers our heart and allows better governance of our emotions and reactions. We are made righteous through HIS righteousness.

Feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace

We understand that shoes are an essential part of any outfit. We may be fully clothed and have all we need on, but we are not ready to leave the house and accomplish anything without our shoes on. We can’t leave the house, we can’t go out and do what we plan to do with no shoes on. Also, it’s important that the shoes we have on are appropriate for where we are going or what we are going to do. Shoes are a protection from the ground that we have to walk on. The stones and harness of the ground would make walking and travelling long distances difficult and act as a distraction to the journey. Especially in warfare, it’s important that the shoes were purposeful and efficient for battle. They could not be too heavy or they would slow them down, and no too light or they would not protect against the hard ground. Our mission is to walk with and in the Gospel of Peace. This is the message we look to bring everywhere our feet tread.

Shield of faith

A shield has the function to protect, defend and cover. It is not attached to any fixed part of the body so it has the ability to protect anything from the head, to the feet. It also has the ability to cover and protect others. Faith we know to be the substance of things hoped for (what it’s made out of and made up of), the evidence of things not seen (the proof of things we don’t have yet) Heb 11:1. So how can faith be a defence? When the fiery darts of the devil come, aflame with doubt and fear, it’s the shield of faith that will render them powerless. Our faith allows to remain confident in the ability of God. It’s our faith that stops the attack to our mind, chest, feet. Faith disables anything that might stand against what God can do. We can cover ourselves and other with faith.

Helmet of Salvation

A helmet has the function of covering the head, and depending on the style, the face which holds the eyes. Salvation talks of deliverance from harm and injury and ultimate ruin. Christ has brought us salvation via His death on the cross. From that act of love we have been rescued, preserved and delivered all at the same time. Salvation talks of deliverance from sin and it’s consequence (death). Romans 7:25 (NIV) says “Thanks be to God who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin. Proverbs 23:7 says “As a man thinketh, so is he”. We understand from these the power of the mind. The power of Salvation and our deliverance and ability to walk in the newness of life starts in the mind. We know that most things we do start as a thought in the mind which is why Romans 12 begs that we be renewed in our mind. Salvation acts as a covering to our mind and ultimately what we do. Because we have been changed, new born and our life has been rearranged, the things we used to do we do them no more, places we used to go we go, we go there no more thanks to Salvation and the change and covering of the mind.

Sword of the Spirit

The sword is a powerful part of the armour. One that is again in no fixed place, but can be directed to the enemy at hand. The Sword of the Spirit which is the word of God. Hebrews 4:12 tell us that the word of God is alive, and quick and sharper than any two edge sword, penetrating, and dividing. Such is the power of the word of God. The word of God is the only part of the armour that is used to attack. The rest of the armour is used to defend but the word of God is set to attack and fight back. The believe must have access to a sword to make it through warfare. The undiluted word of God that is forever settled in the heaven is the only line of attack that we have against the enemy.

Prayer:

A forgotten part of the armour. Prayer. It is here where we suit up. It’s here where we get repairs and replacements and reinforcements to our armour. It’s in prayers that we learn more about the enemy and receive insight about it. It’s here that God allows us to communicate and strategies and plan and attack. Its where we meet the captain of the Lords host (Joshua 5) and rally together with others in the war and boost each other up ready for war. It’s here where we heal from a battle that we may not have won. Its hear where our wounds are bound together and oil and wine is poured in. It’s here where you can be encouraged to go and fight again!